are you still mad I kicked you out of bed?are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?are you still mad I compared you to allmy forty year old male friends?are you still mad I shared our problemswith everybody? are you still mad I had an emotional affair?are you still mad I tried to mold you […]

i’d be lying if I said I was completely unscathedI might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliationwould I be letting you win in my non reaction?how would I explain?how would I explain this to my children if I had them?because I can’t notbecause I can’t notbecause I can’t afford to be […]

i’ve seen them kneelwith baited breath for the rituali’ve watched this experience raisethem to pseudo higher levelsi’ve watched them leave their familiesin pursuit of your nirvanai’ve seen them coming to line upfrom switzerland to america how long will this take babahow long have we been sleepingdo you see me hanging on toevery word you sayhow […]

That I would be good even if I did nothingThat I would be good even if I got the thumbs downThat I would be good if I got and stayed sickThat I would be good even if I gained ten pounds That I would be fine even if I went bankruptThat I would be good […]

You from New York you are so relevantYou reduce me to cosmic tearsLuminous more so than most anyoneUnapologetically alive knot in my stomachAnd lump in my throatI love you when you dance when you freestyle in tranceSo pure such an expressionSuppossed former infatuation junkieI sink three pointers and you wax poeticallyI love you when you […]

How about getting off of these antibioticsHow about stopping eating when I’m filled upHow about them transparent dangling carrotsHow about that ever elusive kudo Thank you IndiaThank you terrorThank you disillusionmentThank you frailtyThank you consequenceThank you thank you silence How about me not blaming you for everythingHow about me enjoying the moment for onceHow about […]

I was afraid you’d hit me if i’d spoken up I wasafraid of your physical strength I was afraidyou’d hit below the belt I was afraid of yoursucker punch I was afraid of you reducing meI was afraid of your alocohol breath I was afraidof your complete disregard for me I was afraidof your temper […]

as we were taking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the subject mattermy wife is in the next room we’ve been having troubles you know please don’t tell her or anyonebut I need to talk to somebodyyou said "wouldn’t it be a shame if I knew how great I was five […]